Why this darkness dominated the self
Even i don't understand
Why the life must face the darkness
I wish i know
Human bonds is like a Pandora box
With single touch it can change the life
Like the rise of the curtain on the stage
Like the intro within the music
It can bring the light of life and youth
Or it can awaken the darkness in the self
The bonds is strong yet very fragile
It is strong
To help people from falling to despair
Yet it's fragile
Just single matter and everything is over
And the backlash from it was heavy
It was painful
My Bond with my family
Is crumbling down by a single word
A simple word called expectation
Making the self so scared
That this one might become a disappointment
My Bond with my old Friends
Are crumbling down
By simple word of disappointment
They talked bad of me behind me
Treating this self as a dense idiot
Looking down on me with their smiles
Leaving me behind on everything
Treating this self as an extra
Even i admit that friendship is warm
The pain from it also quite strong
And my encounter with three matters
Likes, love and affection
Building strange new sensation in the self
Giving me the awe and admiration
Bittersweet taste within this tale
Gantung me courage to stand up one more time
But the crumble cause the worst pain
It made this one fall to the darkness
Making this one commit the sins
Seven deadly sins of the ancient Lore
Because of the pain
I commit the sin of Luxuria
In order to create an artificial warmth
For this pitiful self on the stage
I commit the sin of Gula
To mend and forget the pain inside
I commit the sin of Acedia
To ease the pain of a broken heart
I indulge myself in sin of Ira
For myself who gave up so easily
For myself who couldn't be someone else
Who can bear any expectation of others
But this one also have Avarithia's sin
That i want to have the one doesn't belong to myself
At the same time
I hold the sin of Invidia
To the protagonist in your love story
To the people hold i wanted to have
To the people who can mend their heart fast
To my innocent self
Who knows nothing about the world
And I hide everything for Superbia' sin
I cover everything with fake smiles
I build a scenario for everything
Acting like happy-go-lucky people
Building a huge gap in the Paradox
Light and darkness
Hope a d despair
And thanks to those pain i gave up
On life
On the fate
On myself
Expectation is heavy
Betrayal is painful
Solitude is cold
If i cast away those feeling
I wonder if i my heart Wil stop aching
Maybe i'll stay here for now
In this imaginary four walls around me
Hiding, crying, and then forgetting
Everything which started the Bond
Like pressing the reset button
Which can't be Pressed by none
Who hold something called desire
